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so its your big day
you’re leaving!!
for your big adventure
to find the right place for yourself
sounds like its gonna be a doozy
well I know you’ll be able to handle it
you’re strong enough
you’re kind and caring and independent
you’re a really great person
and I’m so glad you’re leaving
not because I want you gone
quite the opposite
but because you’re going to be happy
and that makes me so happy
because I love you
and I want you to be happy
bye skylar!!!
I’ll miss you
im floating
a sea of blue and cyan
washing over me like a paint can cracked open slightly
falling
but not
falling isnt peaceful or content
this is
very much so
yoursmilemakesmyheartmeltyourewonderfuliloveyousomuch
nighttime
an elevation
a pool on a hilltop overlooking a city at night
staring up at the sky and seeing the plethora of illumination both artificial and natural
the sky is a painting filled with the reds and blues and greens and colors of pure light and beauty
beautiful
yourebeautifulyoureamazingandimsoverymuchinlovewithyou
content
staying up late at night staring at the ceiling
with this song on loop
slowly piecing things together
nothing in particular
just the sound of a drum machine and the bassline to your life
life
iwanttospendtherestofmylifewithyouandgetmarriedandeverythingandijustloveyousomuchicanlivewithoutyou
peace
introversion is contentness
2 am in the morning on a school night
with you
iwanttobewithyousobadly
iloveyou
lights all out
standing at the edge of the tallest cliff you’ve ever seen
ready to jump and let the darkness engulf you
just let it all out
and scream on the way down
as the tiny dots above you fade to black
and your body slowly hits the water
and the whole fucking world goes into slow motion
you quietly drown
no struggle at all
not a care in the world
just the water and your body
and your plea for death
as you descend slowly into the depths of the sea
your limp and dead body
murdered by the combined forces of the fall and the body of water
slamming your body
compressing it into a shell of the former person it was
it wonders to itself
what was its purpose
to house your soul?
too meaningless.
mainly because it rained today
early this morning
before i went to school
as the clouds started parting
while we were driving
i looked up
and saw
a light blue sky
dotted and bordered by black clouds
it made me think of a painting
worn down
and torn
but at the core
still beautiful
it was pretty nice
i still had to go to school though
you were gone the whole day
it was weird
you not being there
i just had one of those days
where i did
absolutely nothing
i sat around a lot today
stared up at the ceiling
the bumps and cracks
i took a walk
and sat outside
i stared at the passing cars
i got a few odd looks back
probably because it was extremely humid
and i was wearing a hoodie
but it was my favorite hoodie
it reminds me of you
i took a shower and thought about things after that
more staring and pondering
i was supposed to be in bed 30 minutes ago
but i couldn’t go a day without talking to you
you finally got on
it was a huge relief
i waited my whole day for you
everything about love
is stupid
the way it makes you think
and act
how it can calm you down
or worry you to no end
and how it can cause someone
to become the center of your life
it’s really dumb
but still kinda nice
we’ll break the laws of the universe
to be together
and the whole place will just collectively take a huge shit on itself
we’ll be flying out of black holes
and piloting the earth at breakneck speeds across the milky way
fuck that star nigga we’ll blow that shit up
for love
i love you in ways
that i can’t express
with anything
but actions
words aren’t enough
and it really hurts
not being able to tell you
my feelings for you
i dont know what im doing sometimes
rainy days are great
too bad it never rains here anymore
oh well
